Secure in this raging silence
A warm embrace that cools me
Its gentle sting upon my skin
The power of nothing flows over me
In the roaring silence
I hear the whispers of God
Humbled by the ebb and flow
Light and shadow slip away
Leaning into a momentary surrender
Time disintegrates into the passing of breath
All I am is existence
Serenity, bliss, and furious quiet
I'm sorry i can't let you bring me down
got too much to lose
too much in this new direction
I'm all i've got, but just for now
and i won't be held down
this freedom hasn't come free
and i've lost too much no to say
I'm sorry but i've got to be me
serendipity is my new love and
solace more than an idea now
guess you wouldn't know
But I'm afraid you'll hate me now
and I'm sorry for the wrongs i've done
to you, to the ones i love, to everyone and all
It's not my fault just the end of a misguided misdirection
my head still aches but my pain is gone
no need for drugs and demons to make me numb
Conversations with ... by Ironic-Injustice, literature
Literature
Conversations with ...
Met with Jesus in the Eastern sky
Talked of the lives we'd left behind
Showed me how to forgive them
Told me of the love them
Talked of his Mary and his mother
Of his father and of God
Said he was just a man
Just like me
Walked with Moses in the Southern sky
Talked of the times we almost died
Showed me how to survive
Told me about his faith
Talked of freedom and pride
Of his journey and the desert
Said he was just a man
Just like me
Met with Muhammad in the Western sky
Talked of the women who saved us
Showed me how to forgive me
Told me how to love me
Talked of this mother and his sisters
Of his love and his fear
Said he
Prelude -not yet edited- by Ironic-Injustice, literature
Literature
Prelude -not yet edited-
"I die in my dreams."
Stunned she stared at him, merely lying there gazing blankly into the tiles of the false ceiling. He didn't seem to realize the possible reactions to or importance of such a statement could cause. "What do you mean you die in your dreams? That is not possible," she said after she had regained herself.
"Really, are you certain? Surely the brilliant and talented Dr. Karen Brown would have read articles on this phenomena, if not published one yourself." He replied slowly and sarcastically. Nodding her head in a futile attempt to hide the fact that she had not, she asked him to explain. He played meticulously with his h
Home, where the heart is
and my heart is far from here
hidden under the open sky
free in the moist forest air
were water meets light
and stars are all that break the night
These seasons change
but mine remain
the same
I know the truth, but
I've shown you lie
Now these seasons cycle
slowly repeat
but my seasons change
to the war drums' beat
will we die for peace
or kill their war
won't you Hold her tight
as it feeds
As genesis bleeds
and the world flows down
and follows 'round
just one love short
of passion and
one day away
from
our salvation
this circle asends, the mountain falls
and i return to what should have always been
now i ask you
how this got so skewed
why do we continue
Continue to ask all of these
These questions without
Without answers
So now we take it all
take it all in and push it all away
tell me, Tell Me, TELL ME
all these things, I can't understand
How can't you comprend every
which way will take us to the end
Which Way, Which WAY, WHICH
God, where have you gone
why are you so small
god tell me, WHY
Speak to me
Soothe me
Tell me
what is this
What IS IT FOR
the circle ascends
the mountains fall
And I Return
to what should have always been
Secure in this raging silence
A warm embrace that cools me
Its gentle sting upon my skin
The power of nothing flows over me
In the roaring silence
I hear the whispers of God
Humbled by the ebb and flow
Light and shadow slip away
Leaning into a momentary surrender
Time disintegrates into the passing of breath
All I am is existence
Serenity, bliss, and furious quiet
I'm sorry i can't let you bring me down
got too much to lose
too much in this new direction
I'm all i've got, but just for now
and i won't be held down
this freedom hasn't come free
and i've lost too much no to say
I'm sorry but i've got to be me
serendipity is my new love and
solace more than an idea now
guess you wouldn't know
But I'm afraid you'll hate me now
and I'm sorry for the wrongs i've done
to you, to the ones i love, to everyone and all
It's not my fault just the end of a misguided misdirection
my head still aches but my pain is gone
no need for drugs and demons to make me numb
Conversations with ... by Ironic-Injustice, literature
Literature
Conversations with ...
Met with Jesus in the Eastern sky
Talked of the lives we'd left behind
Showed me how to forgive them
Told me of the love them
Talked of his Mary and his mother
Of his father and of God
Said he was just a man
Just like me
Walked with Moses in the Southern sky
Talked of the times we almost died
Showed me how to survive
Told me about his faith
Talked of freedom and pride
Of his journey and the desert
Said he was just a man
Just like me
Met with Muhammad in the Western sky
Talked of the women who saved us
Showed me how to forgive me
Told me how to love me
Talked of this mother and his sisters
Of his love and his fear
Said he
Prelude -not yet edited- by Ironic-Injustice, literature
Literature
Prelude -not yet edited-
"I die in my dreams."
Stunned she stared at him, merely lying there gazing blankly into the tiles of the false ceiling. He didn't seem to realize the possible reactions to or importance of such a statement could cause. "What do you mean you die in your dreams? That is not possible," she said after she had regained herself.
"Really, are you certain? Surely the brilliant and talented Dr. Karen Brown would have read articles on this phenomena, if not published one yourself." He replied slowly and sarcastically. Nodding her head in a futile attempt to hide the fact that she had not, she asked him to explain. He played meticulously with his h
Home, where the heart is
and my heart is far from here
hidden under the open sky
free in the moist forest air
were water meets light
and stars are all that break the night
These seasons change
but mine remain
the same
I know the truth, but
I've shown you lie
Now these seasons cycle
slowly repeat
but my seasons change
to the war drums' beat
will we die for peace
or kill their war
won't you Hold her tight
as it feeds
As genesis bleeds
and the world flows down
and follows 'round
just one love short
of passion and
one day away
from
our salvation
this circle asends, the mountain falls
and i return to what should have always been
now i ask you
how this got so skewed
why do we continue
Continue to ask all of these
These questions without
Without answers
So now we take it all
take it all in and push it all away
tell me, Tell Me, TELL ME
all these things, I can't understand
How can't you comprend every
which way will take us to the end
Which Way, Which WAY, WHICH
God, where have you gone
why are you so small
god tell me, WHY
Speak to me
Soothe me
Tell me
what is this
What IS IT FOR
the circle ascends
the mountains fall
And I Return
to what should have always been
This Bittersweet Anomaly by hitsfrznglass, literature
Literature
This Bittersweet Anomaly
So I've grown and built
Constructed ideas and analogies and perspectives
Created a mindset all my own
In this solitary independence I let you in
I am a tower, unshakable
I am unbreakable and fierce in my stability
I am ok
I built my card tower, it is sturdy
I am secure and strong.
I look at you and I glow with delight
This anomaly holds more sway than I care to admit
This sanguine construct has suited me it has fulfilled me
I'm complete by myself, you are but an adornment
If there were ever a greater farce, I know not of it
For that is not the truth
I am in love and I am scared
I am not fierce anymore, and a single empty look
Been rejected a few too many times,
You always did prefer others to me,
While all along I was standing on my head for you,
Your very own personal court jester.
So, I put up a wall,
With you and everyone else,
I hid myself away,
And I stayed that way.
Now expectation of rejection,
You always did prefer other women to me,
Not realizing what the affect would be,
But would you have cared?
All the time I was wondering, what was wrong with me,
Never knowing nor understanding,
And just for one brief moment,
I wished I were them..
I don't want to be alone tonight
I don't think I'm safe tonight
I don't want to be alone tonight
With no one here to hold me tight
No one here to tell me it's all right
With no one watching over me
I just might take my life tonight
I shouldn't be alone tonight
But she isn't here again
When she comes home
In my body will my soul reside?
Who will save me from myself?
When no one is here to take the knife
I don't want to end my life tonight
Though I maybe dying tonight
I would rather be crying
But as the night envelopes
And my darkness enshrouds
Drag the blade across my skin
It is only a little sin
The crimson tears flow
I d
Current Residence: Wisconsin (Fox Valley) deviantWEAR sizing preference: M-L Favourite genre of music: Alternative Rock MP3 player of choice: iPad Favourite cartoon character: Archer Personal Quote: "It's easier to forgive you than it is to forgive myself."
I woke up with a migraine and went back to bed until I had to get up for work.
I went to work... didn't eat much because I didn't want to get sick. Wore Oakleys all day which was kinda sweet, I mean come on.
Did some volunteer work after work even though a group of boys in various states of puberty definitely did not mesh with a migraine.
Then I relaxed until my migraine subsided and played racquetball with a new cousin, which was fun.
THEN I realized that I really like where I'm at in life because I was having a conversation with someone today I had this thought "She is really *interesting*." And then I remembered having that same though
Every so often in life a person is faced with a decision that isn't difficult to make.
A decision in which the choice is clear and unavoidable.
Where logic and self-preservation trump all the emotional.
Today I have to say goodbye to a lot of people in my life.
In order to maintain my professional life I must drastically change part of my personal life.
I must walk away from some of the people who have helped me the most in the last year and a half in my life.
These people carried me through the death of the only person I ever trusted and they loved me until I could love myself.
I know that I might never see some of these people aga
Hello DA universe!
So you may be saying, "Ironic-injustice, I thought he died or something." Truth be told... nope. Still here.
Let me see, it's been over 2 years since I last participated in the DA funness. How about a quick recap.
What's happened to me in the last 2 years...
I graduated college :-)
I visited Mexico and got TB :-(
I gave up cigarettes, alcohol, etc. :-)
I lost the only person I ever felt unconditional love from :'(
I got a kick-ass job doing what I love :-)
I broke up with a woman I had an unhealthy on and off relationship with :-)
I started living for me :-)
I started loving me :-)
I still struggle with a lot of